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Wednesday, 01 July 2009

Its been a while since been here well time fly by fast there was up and downs but that is life aint it.
Well lets start wif a poem which i been writin and it became my fav lol . After which more pics frm me cosplaying and more :)
Lets call it Emptiness.

Can you possibly fathom how it feels
To live without the unparalleled thing
That you really, truly, genuinely want,
That makes your heart throb and sing?

I know you presumptively haven't,
Or you'd beyond doubt be just like me;
Closemouthed from the inside out,
Yearning, thriving, wanting just to see

That one person I really, truly, undoubtedly want,
The only one to end my endless, bliss less drought.
Passing over to me a illimitable sliver of happiness,
And then, on spur of moment, I'm free of all doubt.

At that very occasion, I think it's all gratifying
When I'm floating buoyantly on thin air-
Then I'm plummeting groundward
When I realize they're no longer there.

Do you realize how that feels?
To be a carapace, abandoned, and hollow,
Knowing nothing but to brace yourself
For the inevitable pain that soon follows.

Living without the sole thing on this great Earth
Heaven or Hell, that makes you whole and completes you
Is not a desirable life, believe me when I say,
The Emptiness is not something you wish to live through.

The forsaken, deceiving semblance slowly furnishes me
With outlandish animosity, hunger, and a strong desire
When my only prize in life, what I live for, is gone,
To burn everyone and everything with resentment as my fire.

Great Earth, Sky above, divine Heaven, and the depths of Hell
Bellow for me at once, each in attempt to gain me with lure.
I lament, I scream, I fall to my knees, and ruefully for my suffering,
For this terrible affliction, there is no cure.

Saturday, 25 April 2009

Too many thing experience

Well it feels like only yesterday when i went to cambodia and participate in Week 0 freshman orientation.
The best time of ma life playing with the orphans and doin something meaningful.
good things and bad things may happen and all but not all are disappointments. Did participate in dragonboat and got second place i feel happy with that :P. Though falling in love is a beautiful thing but sometimes it jus not meant to be..... during this 2 events, 10-days cambodia camp and 4 days week 0 camp really show lots unpleasant and pleasent moments... like how i like to put it its part and parcel of our daily life....i will miss the kids in cambodia they brought tear to ma eyes upon me leaving the place.....grads during the trip and during the camp i will miss u guys and gals..... i got too many to write but for now this jus the tip of the iceberg :) Well here are some pics of my freshies and ma trip from cambodia....and a lil song here too.....

Friday, 20 March 2009

Drowning in own sorrows

Hmmmm updates from what been goin on..................
Ma results is out kinda happy with it
Help out in the Amazing Race 6 thanks june for asking me to be MO(mobile officer)
During the race made new and bond wif old frens
June & all the graduating peeps happy graduating May u guys find jobs
Well gonna fly soon 1st april
Preparing for it now
Lots of planing to do
May the orphan there be excited wif our arrivals
Lets get high & fly
there pls someone jus drown ma sorrow there
Was disappointed badly.....
Does anyone knws how it feel singing ANGEL EYES to a recording machine
and yet the person neva hears it......
Well thats love
Its hurts more to find out ur jus another spare tire
Damn i gootta b numb soon....
Here is the lyrics....

ANGELS EYES

Angel eyes
You have angel eyes
Such a smile that lights up my life oh
You're a dream come true
Now I'm holding you
And I'll never, never let you go
I will never let you go

First time I laid my eyes upon you
All my dreams were answered
First time I kissed your tender lips
My love to you I surrendered

I'll never let you go
You're always on my mind
You're the only one for me
You're all I need
And I'll never, never let you go

Angel eyes
My heart relies
On the love you give to me
You never let me down
You're always by my side
And I'll never, never let you go
I will never let you go

When my heart starts to crumble
And the tears start to fall
You hold me close with tender lovin'
And give me strength to carry on

I'll never let you go
You're always on my mind
You're the only one for me
You're all I need
And I'll never, never let you go

I'll never let you go
You're always on my mind
You're the only one for me
You're all I need
And I'll never, never let you go oh ooh
And I'll never, never let you go

Lyrics | Steelheart - I’ll Never Let You Go (Angel Eyes) lyrics

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

BANKAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well wif V-day over and all
Its time for me to fully occupy my brain wif ma 3 sub.
Nuting really special happen one the day other than
went out wif ma frens and chill out at bugis at some pub
watchin soccer
and actually advise ma fren who was worse of than me
"U can make everyday a V-day in ur relationship y constraint urself to the date 14 feb?"
when i tink bout it ,wat i say make sense :P
so no regrets being alone on that day.
That day is da day where 6 guys had fun.
Its jus another guys out.
But i like to thanks ma god sis frm skool for gifing me a present lol
Ur kor will try to be there for u always :P
ok now i gotta switch to study mode.
BANKAI!!!!!
wont b blogging for a while from today so till the nxt blog hehehehe
Sayonara :)

Sunday, 01 February 2009

Mood in da drain....

Been updating here too much...dunno why maybe I'm not myself or maybe I'm just feeling down...
I guess life and studies has taken a toll in ma life... really making it kinda upside down....
Well i believe this is how life work.........
I have got 3 quizzes in a day on Tues which is dfund, dfund lab, emaths and i got a lab test on Mon also...Study Study Study
Sianz AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How am i to work like tis LOL.....many people calling me crazy hafing 3 jobs at the same time......
Well time to get time off from wrk for the time being.....
Many things haf change for me especially towards someone in particular....
Now i feel like doing Harakiri GOD.......
I guess somethings we just haf to leave it to fate...
Well since V-day is gonna be lonely for me... a lonely sad poem has been created...
Enjoy....

DEEPEST FEELING

My dearest love,
Look at the deepest heart of me,
Like a river without water,
As my heart without a lover.

I was lonely,
Since happiness had left me,
And now i am still lonely,
By the pure of love, i declare.

Come with me, my love,
I'll show you about the green grass along the riverside,
Look, they are so happy,
As the view enchanted us to see.

How lovely they are, fill with joy,
Dancing as they never been born,
Singing as they never been cry again,
A beautiful view that only for a moment.

All i want is your heart,
All i need is your love,
And throw my lonely away with your smile,
Until the end of our time.

Friday, 30 January 2009

Haven been maself

Well dun really haf much to say....
Not being ma self nowadays since exam is in ma mind...
*Sigh* in ma mind is the phrase " Birds are suppose to fly free and not kept in a cage"
I dunno y im hafing this phrase in ma mind ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
SHINMA HUKUMETSU!!!!!!!!!!!
Well lets divert ma emotions to this heartbroken poem tat jus came to mind.....

I Need Her

I'm trapped inside my love

I never will be freed

Of the pain I always have

Of this aching, biting need.

It hurts because I miss you

And the pain will never cease

It'll never let me forget my love

Never give me peace.

I can't change the way I feel

I'll live with it instead

I loved you then, I love you now

I'll love you when I'm dead.

I cry and then I wonder

Why I can't have you

I forget how much you hurt me

I want the gal I knew.

Every time I see you

And look into your eyes

I see the gal I'll always love

Hidden deep inside.

This prison is my home

It's the only thing I see

It's trapped me here, there's no escape

And I can never leave.

Thursday, 29 January 2009

Up comin V-Day

Well well well V-day is coming up guess will be alone....
i think :P
anyway came up wif a few poems which da dudes and dudette able to wow their partner I wonder who will be ma partner for that day sigh.....

For Ma better half

I miss my Love the half of my whole

The one I love and want to behold

With Her again I yearn to be

And enjoy a togetherness that makes us happy

Its such a miserable day here today

Rain, rain and cloudy dull dark skies

A lonely, cold and damp feeling allover

Little depressing, oh! for the days of July

Weather be mindful of my concern

Go away rain, please go away soon

For bright day and light to return

The open skies with shining afternoon

I'll not let the weather get me down

Nor the loneliness of one half depress

Reassured that my love is always Her

And Her reciprocating love to me I'll bless

What manner of love do I possess?

Its confusing, controlling and somewhat cruel

Twisting and turning the insides of me

Sometimes I feel like a simple fool

And the loneliness does persist

They say its only natural

Especially when love between two exists

Must I now rely on the supernatural?

Oh God of rain and God of light

And God of all that lives this life

Please look, look deep within our hearts

Never to keep my Dearest and me apart

My Dear I miss you the half of my whole

The one I love and want to behold

With You again I yearn to be

And enjoy a togetherness that makes us happy

Wow from here here is another short one for those cards that come wif the flowers :P

Ma lil Valentine
I wish you were my Valentine
Though I may not be yours,
And I may, in my ignorance,
Be speaking to closed doors.

I have no inkling of your heart,
No hint what you might say;
But when I think of you the sun
Will just not go away.

There is in you a loveliness
That makes my darkness shine,
And so I’ll wait, if wait I must,
To be your Valentine.
From here i liek to say thanks to those peeps that been there for helping me thru :)

Friday, 23 January 2009

Whoppeeeeee

Wow its been a very long while since i wrote anything here. 1stly Happy new year guys and gals. 2nd i'm sorry not able to update as been bz with works and school. Yes i am in school again...Got convince by ma lil sis to study again lol.....But no matter what i still do party and do enjoy ma self.... Well its a new year and a new part of life.....
Yet letting go of the past is such a hassle :P.... Back to skool met up wif old frens and made new frens GOD i feel so old hahahahaha...... Well its a new year so tis is time around i shall place 2 of them for the benefits of others enjoy hope u guys n gals like it use it if u wan :)....

JUST FOR YOU

I fell in love with you

and then you broke my heart,

I knew never to love a player,

I was wrong from the start...

Loving you was like ripping out my heart.

I refused to look around me and see

all the terrible things you were doing to me,

I was in my own world and I didn't see all the trouble you were,

I was deeply in love.

Now that's all ruined, you see,

All because you played me,

You had looks, you had charm,

You were slick with your words,

You knew just what to say.

I was foolish to think

we were made for each other,

I always prayed you

would never love another,

I wanted us to always be with each other.

Loving a player is one of the

hardest things ever,

I have learned a lot

from my experiences with you,

My heart was broken into two.

I know now, as I look back on my past,

Dating a player will never last,

So, in my future I'll watch what I do,

I won't date anymore players,
But I'll still always love you.

IN MA ARMS

You squeal at me
I look at you
you climb in bed
I held your hand
you smile at me
I kiss your hand
You fall asleep
the night has peaked
dare we speak?

Glance around
Don't make a sound
Laugh away
these crazy days
please don't frown
I don't want you down
Hold you tight
when your full of fright
never out of sight
you're my light

In the spring picnic for two
Watching the sky so blue
clouds pass bye
let us never die

See you walking
laughing and talking
didn't think it real
life can make things a wonderful meal
sometimes things seem so wrong
but that doesn't last long
just give me a hug
ill give your hand a tug
its cute when you pout
you put a plane in my coat
Made my day
please don't go away

Ill always be here
just take a peer
here in my hood
feeling pretty good
when your feeling dim
just find me
i hope i can make you grin

Monday, 15 September 2008

Another new day

Another day same old things same old self same old boring sad life
Well nuting new to write actually
Other than got to knw someone from poland she added me up in myspace
Nice gal...Too bad we r far apart hahahahaha
O yah got a webcam as well not too shabby 5 megapix webcam jus for pix at hm lol
Been staying hm n goin to wrk this past few days
Sleeping late jus becoz got too many thing in ma mind
cnt do thing properly....sigh....someone bring me to a place to cool off lol

Anyway tis is something tat wat i haf done when im at home (god i became a homely guy lol!!!!!!)
Hope u guys do enjoy it though a lil emo but hope enjoy it
It is something i scribble on ma notebook 4 someone hahahahaha

Title: Everlasting love

If in this lifetime,
I wont get to have you,
I'll make sure that if
I meet you in my next life
I wont have to think twice on
saying that
"I waited a lifetime to say I love you..."

If You Love Me Like You Told Me
Please Be Careful With My Heart.
You Can Take It
Just Don't Break It
Or My World Would Fall Apart.

To see you is what my eyes long for,
to touch you is what my body longs for,
but to love you,
my heart has done already for a long time.

If, each time I thought of you were a flower,
I could walk in my garden forever.

The moment I looked in your eyes I fell in love.
Every time I look I fall in love again.
I've looked so many times,
and have gathered so much love.
I have so much to carry with me
I don't know what to do

Loving you is what I've learned so easily.
Trying to forget you is the last thing
I could possibly learn
because I'm deeply in love with you.

I would give up everything
for one moment with you;
for one moment
is better than a lifetime of not knowing you

I never loved you more
cause I never loved you less,
I dont love you now coz
I will love you always,
I dont just love you coz
I love you more than "I love you" can say ...

You justify my existence ...
if i have not known you,
I wouldn't have lived,
if I die with out knowing you,
I wouldn't die coz I didn't live at all ...

The sun can have the sky and it wouldnt matter.
The night can have its stars and i woudnt care.
Tomorrow can be majestic yet remain empty,
for it simply wouldnt matter without you there.

If she is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
the only thing you think of when you're awake,
and the last thing you think of before you go to bed,
then she is really somebody special.

Love is not measured by how you feel,
but how you make the other person feel.

As Part Of You Has Grown In Me,
Together Forever Shall We Be,
Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

Movie madness

Yeah had great fun pass few days met up wif danny n mat noor
Along the way met radin n din i think i got their name rite
Ya buka along the bugis had great fun guy nice guys outing though hafin some gals around wud b nice hehehehehe
Jus browsing around beach Rd then bugis for some items n from there we hit town nice place to b when there is no mat or minah around lol normal its fasting period da time where they b at geylang where else hahahaha

Da day b4 i met wif da guys i catch a gd movie since i already read the comics n watch the drama kinda nice
cool ending too. the movie is called Boys Over Flowers final or another words Hana Yori Dango Finale :P....

Then when i got back i catch a movie called 4-bia on the com nice nice
u guys shud watch it cool :)